Experimenting with mixed techniques again


Long time no see, I have been in a bit of an experimental period in the sense that I have been learning airbrush (off camera mostly) when I have some space over for creating art.

I need to shuffle my priorities a bit now, I can feel it. I have way too little time over for artsy stuff recently and I need to change that. This is what I LOVE to do (besides my horse) and I need to invest more time into it.

I do this mainly for my own gain, it is my feel-good-drug that keeps me up in this crazy world that is spinning faster and faster. I have no illusions I will reach somewhere, I just want to improve for myself and my own purpose in life. And as with all drugs, you need higher and better doses the longer you go; With art it is that I feel I HAVE to improve all the time in order to get the sufficient kick out of it.

Recently it has been slow due to my learning progress of airbrush but recent days, my artworking initiative has started to come back. Especially since I just learned that my airbrush colors works and blend with my promarkers in a beneficial way.

This is a commissioned multi portrait of Peter Steele that I am working on (in time lapse too, so the entire progress will be displayed later)!

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Peter Steele mixed media portrait by Paulina Medepon Arts

The bottom picture is the recent image I shot. This has so far taken me about 3 hours, so still VERY early on. Later I will try to add some airbrush touch to it, to make it more interesting (and ups my mixed media concept in one artwork to 6 components; Promarkers, ink, ink pencils, aquarelle pencils, charcoal and airbrush).

To be continued.

 

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Sewing in deep water


This is the sketch I made at 6 am this morning when I woke up with an “idea” in mind (it’s interesting how creativity hits, especially when it’s in a field you are not that experienced in and in a way that I would NEVER even think of – I AM GOING WITHOUT ANY PATTERN OR INSTRUCTION HELP WHAT SO EVER, that is why I want to share it already in case I blow it later on so I write about it when I am still in a good place 😉 )

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Now, several hours later, it looks like this;

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I have used the original idea but I have altered the design and making the hems even. I REALLY wanted that huge hood and I actually pulled it off so far, even the attachment to the neckline seems to be a no-problem. On the open sides seen in the picture I will do faux leather inlays that I will lace if the fit is too loose with leather strings. In the front as “buttoning” I will do lacing with ribbons but that comes later when I put fodder in! I will also make long, symmetric sleeves (without the leather I had in the original idea I guess, haven’t decided yet 😉 )

The layout is now in progress as I go, with the original sketch in mind, but I have stepped aside from it.

Note, I have NEVER done ANYTHING without patterns and instructions before, now I have to figure it out myself.

I am in DEEP water here, completely swimming in the unknown. But that is the purpose and essence of “unchained creativity” isn’t it? I decided to go completely with my gut feeling at this point and see where it takes me!

Still not sure if this will be a good thing or turn into a quilted blanket, it is still hidden for me 😉 But my GUTS tell me this will be good for me at least.

It’s not the finished product that is the goal, it is the development and the process in itself.

Til later (when I hopefully haven’t trashed the entire thing)

//Paulina Medepona

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Time lapse/speed drawing – Anglerfish


This little bugger is one of my favorite deep sea creatures besides the vampire squid (will have to draw that one later)! I made this drawing with Promarkers and ink pencils.

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(facts copied from http://animals.nationalgeographic.com/animals/fish/anglerfish/)

The angry-looking deep sea anglerfish has a right to be cranky. It is quite possibly the ugliest animal on the planet, and it lives in what is easily Earth’s most inhospitable habitat: the lonely, lightless bottom of the sea.

There are more than 200 species of anglerfish, most of which live in the murky depths of the Atlantic and Antarctic oceans, up to a mile below the surface, although some live in shallow, tropical environments. Generally dark gray to dark brown in color, they have huge heads and enormous crescent-shaped mouths filled with sharp, translucent teeth. Some angler fish can be quite large, reaching 3.3 feet (1 meter) in length. Most however are significantly smaller, often less than a foot.

Their most distinctive feature, worn only by females, is a piece of dorsal spine that protrudes above their mouths like a fishing pole—hence their name. Tipped with a lure of luminous flesh this built-in rod baits prey close enough to be snatched. Their mouths are so big and their bodies so pliable, they can actually swallow prey up to twice their own size.

The male, which is significantly smaller than the female, has no need for such an adaptation. In lieu of continually seeking the vast abyss for a female, it has evolved into a permanent parasitic mate. When a young, free-swimming male angler encounters a female, he latches onto her with his sharp teeth. Over time, the male physically fuses with the female, connecting to her skin and bloodstream and losing his eyes and all his internal organs except the testes. A female will carry six or more males on her body.

Pretty interesting animal, isn’t it?
Til next time
//Paulina Medepona

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Energy deficiency


Since I went up in time at my regular work (have been working part time for years, never 100% except before I got burned out (for about 2 months)), I got more money.

I got more money to save up to be secure and not feel stressed in the end of the months. Absolutely nothing wrong with that. Money can bring peace in that sense.

The problem is that I have noticed that I since I started my 90%+ schedule is that I have much less energy left over to do things that “matters”.

Go somewhere to do something fun, do art, all the things that add joy to life. Just create art without a big time limit and not feel I am fighting energy deficiency constantly.

I have noticed that my art has come to a steady state thanks to this and THAT is not a nice feeling after all, no matter if I get more money or not. Because of this, my artworking is nowhere near the state is was just a year ago. I wanted to learn to tattoo properly; That came to a hold. I wanted to explore more techniques in artworking; That came to a hold.

When I was on a short sick leave thanks to a pretty traumatic incident a few months ago I felt I could do more art again. But as soon as I got going, I started working again and the feeling faded.

I have gone over this many times and decided that I in the autumn will go down to my “normal” 72% night schedule and try to get back on track with my artworking and LIFE in general.

Money is nice. But money is never so nice that I can sacrifice myself for it completely. I spend most of my days off work trying to recover to at least be able to do the necessary “out of work-duties” that comes with owning a house and a horse. When I worked about 20+% less, I felt better about my balance between work and “recreation”. Less money of course but I could live with it before, I can live with it again.

Feeling outside my real me is not nice, now when I finally found my own personal balance it is even worse. Money can’t buy ALL happiness after all (some, but not all).

This is just a phase. I hope to get back into my old self in just a few months 😉 Bare with me. We all need to explore our boundaries to what we are capable of and not.

Now I know I need more time between my nights shifts in order to be in a creative mood. When I am so tired I want to (and can) sleep all day, my artist sense goes into hibernate. I don’t like it. At all. Not forever at least. Some people can work like crazy and still be creative. I can not. Especially since my burnout 2012 I need to take things easy. My brain gets very tired from time to time when it gets too much stress.

I am hoping to solve this before the year is out.

Sincerely

//Paulina Medepona

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“Trickster”


I have made yet another drawing and recorded a time lapse at the same time. Before it only happened that I published a few drawings and artworks online at all. Recently I have both published every artwork AND made time lapses of all of them. So I feel I have “stepped up the heat” recently so to speak.

Mainly I am more active art-wise now because I need to keep myself occupied during a sick leave from work (because of bad sleeping patterns related to nightmares, fatigue and anxiety after a pretty intense incident soon 2 weeks ago, post-traumatic stress let’s say that made me unable to do my work properly at my night shifts) and I need to keep active to not fall apart.

I was also on the borderline of stress-exhaustion just before the “dramatic incident” and what happened “pushed me over the edge” so to speak. I have been working more than I should on my “normal job” recent months and I guess it has worn me out more than I expected, especially since I want to do art and other stuff on the side. Recently it has been hard to gather my head and get into art so now, when all this happened, I am “making up for lost time” and “making something negative to something positive”.

So now I am done with a time lapse video and artwork of my own photo, “Trickster” (self shot reference photo with a remote).
About 5 hours of work in total of the artwork.
Mixed media with mainly Promarkers, Ink pencils, and Acrylics for the background and darker details.

I truly enjoyed using my OWN photos for a change and I think I will continue that route. It’s better to make genuin artworks of something I created completely by myself, from reference to finished product. I enjoy drawing and use other people’s photos for reference also still. But this is truly my creation and due to the moment, it is time I started getting into photography even more to create my own reference bank.

Music: Blutengel – Über den Horizont

Paulina Medepona Arts 2017

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“Trickster” – by Paulina Medepona.

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“Hiding” in many senses


This is a time lapse video of my most recent artwork!

Drawn with pencil, using a self-shot photo of me with my seal skull (that I salvaged from a carcass that I found on the beach near my summer cottage) in front of my face.

Been through some mental issue-stuff lately after a pretty intense incident a week ago and the employers have poor understanding for mental health problems it seems (I am currently at home with nightmares and fatigue among some symtoms).

You are not allowed to have mental issues in this world apparently. All shall function perfect all the time. If not, you are a bad dead weight to the system and a burden to the business. For that, “you should be guilty”. This self portrait is my mental feeling right now.

Hiding.

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Self portrait “Hiding” by Paulina Medepona Arts

//Paulina Medepona Arts

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Happy new art-year (celebrating with the finished product of the last artwork of 2016)


Happy new art-year (celebrating with the finished product of the last artwork of 2016)!

And that is the Octopus painting I have been working on during the last half of December 2016, called “The Octopus Path”, painted with waterbased oil on cotton canvas, approx 6-7 hours of total time! Here is the video if you haven’t seen it on my other social medias yet.

Here it is on YouTube!
Enjoy!

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“The Octopus Path” by me, Paulina Medepona Arts.

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Happy new art-year again people.
This year I hope to do more art than I have ever done before, in various disciplines as well. I feel this is going to be an experimental year and I have already ordered some CLOTHING-patterns to get me started on making my own clothes (for myself mostly). I will also work more on my freestyle-art, like the Octopus I finished off last year with!

Til next time
Sincerely
Paulina Medepona

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